“I believe in what I am, I believe in what I was”… “I believe I’m better now than I have ever been”, – Kimberly Perry / Neil Perry / Reid Perry

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Three years ago I left Reno for what I thought was the last time. I picked up my boat trailer, left the grey Jetta full of Duane’s stuff and closed a door; a very, very heavy door.

Little did I know at that moment, that within a month, my life would be completely flipped upside down. Little did I know that everything I thought and believed in would be tested. That I would learn how deeply people can hurt another person. How people you love and trust can lie and hurt you on a level that you didn’t know was possible. And that deep down the majority of people are out for themselves. That the majority of people will go to any length to hide their lies and secret lives. 

Most of you have no idea the depths of what happened between April 27, 2015 and July 5, 2017… the lies, the deception and pure hatred that I saw. I am at point where I am able to discuss this and share this. I am slowing going to start sharing MY story. In an attempt to move on and get passed the things that are holding me back from moving on. I have kept a lot to myself to respect people’s privacy, those very people who treated my life as an after thought. And because off the embarrassment that I felt and still feel about these events. 

Some of you are not going to agree with me for bring up the past, sharing this part of MY story. Some of you will support me. And almost all of you will be blown away buy the decisions and actions that took place during these few months that shaped the rest of my life. 

I may not start publicly sharing tomorrow, next week or even next month but I am at a point where nothing is off limits anymore. I have been fiercely protective of my heart and my privacy and I am now realizing that the longer I keep everything bottled up, the longer it will take for me to accept what has happened, how it changed me and to ultimately have the amazing life I deserve. 

– xoxo Victoria

Comeback Kid – The Band Perry
They like to kick you when you’re down
They like it better when you’re there on the ground
And up ’til now I’ve never made a sound
Hey, hey
I bet they’ve never had a broken heart
But they sure know how to beat the hell out of one
Sometimes I think they do it just for the fun
Hey, hey
But no, I’m not leaving, even though I’m bleeding
Even though this nightmare makes me wish I was dreaming
Even though I hate it, I’m gonna take it
Until I win
‘Cause I’m a comeback, I’m a comeback kid
Don’t know why bad things happened, but they did
I don’t think I deserve the hurt I get, but I’m made for it
It’s not the end, no, it’s not the end
I’m a comeback kid
Down for a minute, I’ll get up again
Looks like I’m breaking, but it’s just a bend; it’s not over yet
‘Cause in the end
I’m a comeback, I’m a comeback kid
I’m gonna finish what I started now
You interrupted me with all your doubts
How dare you forget where I started out
Oh oh, oh oh
But no, I’m not leaving, even though I’m bleeding
Even though this nightmare makes me wish I was dreaming
Even though I hate it, I’m gonna take it
Until I win
‘Cause I’m a comeback, I’m a comeback kid
Don’t know why bad things happened, but they did
I don’t think I deserve the hurt I get, but I’m made for it
It’s not the end, no, it’s not the end
I’m a comeback kid
Down for a minute, I’ll get up again
Looks like I’m breaking, but it’s just a bend; it’s not over yet
‘Cause in the end
I’m a comeback, I’m a comeback kid, uh-huh
I believe in what I am, I believe in what I was
I believe in losing you, I’ve never been given so much
I believe it’s been a year, the worst one I’ve ever lived
I believe I’m better now than I have ever been
I believe that ever since everything went south
I believed in every word that ever came out of my mouth
I believe you missed me, but you don’t have to miss me, ’cause
I’m not leaving again
‘Cause I’m a comeback, I’m a comeback kid
Down for a minute, I’ll get up again
Looks like I’m breaking, but it’s just a bend; it’s not over yet
‘Cause in the end
Yeah, I’m a comeback, I’m a comeback kid
I’m not leaving, I’m not leaving
Not leaving again, I’m not leaving
Not leaving again, I’m not leaving
I’ll save you a spot at my big parade
You’re all invited on my comeback day
I’ll serve you ice cream and lemonade
Hey, hey
Songwriters: Kimberly Perry / Neil Perry / Reid Perry
Comeback Kid lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
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One thought on ““I believe in what I am, I believe in what I was”… “I believe I’m better now than I have ever been”, – Kimberly Perry / Neil Perry / Reid Perry

  1. Victoria don’t worry about others. This is Your life. Your story. There is no right or wrong or apologies. It is Your story. What YOU went through. We (everyone) has been through some of the same things. Please never feel ashamed for what ever you have gone through had made you the amazing woman you are today. I admire you so much!

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