Where to start? … I’m making some changes… some major changes.. it’s time.
I have been putting so much stress on myself. I am constantly worried. I am worried about life and death and money and things I have no purpose worrying about because I am fine. But still … I worry about what would happen if … what is going to happen when I’m old, what if the economy crashes, what if I get sick … This is obviously not a healthy way to live (more about that in a blog next week). The stress I am putting myself through needs to end. So I am taking the steps to change.
We always believed that in a marriage/ relationship/ partnership one person had to have a recession proof job … that was Duane – I always had the fun job. Now I feel the need to have a recession proof job – just in case. But I HATE it. I hate being on a schedule and the corporate world and everything that comes along with that. I have put up with bullying, low pay and rudeness because of my new crazy fear of not being ok if something happens.
This is no way to live. So I am making changes. I just started bartending again. I am jump starting my Beautycounter business, auditioning for SAG jobs and working on my book. I am reading again and napping and working out. I am finding my happy again.
Its sucks it took two years to get back to me but I’m here and looking for fun!
– xoxo Victoria
I have a longer blog planned for next week on some of the health issues that I’ve been dealing with because of the stress I have been putting myself through.