“Every time I hear Andra Day’s Rise Up, I Think Of You and wanna cry and smile at the same time”, Jeremy Graves (He is the reason I heard this song…)

I already shared this video on facebook. I don’t think I have ever shared something on social media and then later blogged about it. But my heart hurts tonight. Not is a sad way, not in a bad way… but it does, I cant explain it, but I need a hug. This song is amazing but then the video – that just pushed me over the edge. Every time I watch it I cry… UGLY CRY.

NOT because I am sad but because of the love I am seeing. The selfless love of watching someone take care of another human in such a loving manner. And then I remember that’s what I did. I have never been one to say “look what I did”, I normally just say “that’s what you do for someone you love”. But tonight when I see this simple music video it brings me back to the two years I cared and loved on Duane while WE were battling ALS. I am reminded of all of the good times and the “date nights” and how he tried (most of the time – hahahahaha) to give me the life we had always had. 

I always say I will never do that again. I will never love someone like that again, I will never care for someone like that again, I will never fall like that again. I need to protect my heart. I can’t ever do that again. Then I see the love and it gives me hope. It makes me think that the love you receive back is worth it. It gives me hope that there is real, true love out there. (Hope that the next one won’t die on me too! – Just Kidding – Kinda – You have to know me to appreciate the comment. Duane is laughing at it!)

Love your people. Love them hard! 

– xoxo Victoria

P.S. Please excuse any spelling, punctuation or run of sentences in this, I just wrote. 

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2 thoughts on ““Every time I hear Andra Day’s Rise Up, I Think Of You and wanna cry and smile at the same time”, Jeremy Graves (He is the reason I heard this song…)

  1. Victoria you are such an amazingly strong woman. But remember you are still a beautiful young woman and Duane would want you to move on and be happy. Don’t feel like you are betraying everything you had together. You can still get the message out while trying to see where your future is. You will always love him. But you have such a big beautiful heart and there is room for more love. I know that is what he would want.

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