Two years ago “heads” won.
I can’t believe its been two years – it feels like 10, even thought I am still constantly lost! hahahaha
The past two years have been hard, so incredibly hard. Moving cross country in and of itself is exhausting, but couple that with loss and grief – it’s immeasurable. I have felt like I was barely hanging on more times than not. I have felt lost and confused more often than not. I have doubted every life choice I have ever made more times than I can count. I’ve cried over lost friends and family, questioned what to do with my life and doubted myself almost every day.
But on this two year anniversary of crossing in North Carolina I can say I have an idea of what I want and what that looks like. I have come to terms with many types of loss and heartbreak. I have learned that no life is perfect and it is ok to have questions without answers.
Life has not been a fairytale, it isn’t happily ever after (so far) but its good. I have finished a little more school, published a book, made some friends and started a new job. I have a plan, a very loose plan, but still a plan (kinda). I have goals and so much that I hope to accomplish in the next year.
I am not sure I will stay here, but I am so thankful that I had a soft place to land. I am thankful that so many people have and continue to welcome me with open arms. I am lucky that I have so much support, near and far and so many people that love, support and believe in me.
So to all of you, here and in California (and everywhere in between), thank you, I love you all and am planning on making another cross-country trip soon.
– xoxo Victoria
I will be in Nevada in January for sure. Hopefully California and Arizona too!