I usually don’t rant, I usually don’t lose my shit – well in front of other people at least. What happens in my home – stays in my home – hahahahaha! (Poor Buddy.) But for those of you who want to fuck with me, don’t forget in the last nine months I’ve lost a lot of people, people who were my family, people I loved. And in the last two years I’ve lost even more, a lot friends, life long friends, so I thought. And you know what, I’m fine. I will always be fine.
The people that have remained or joined my journey are people that care about me, not my past and don’t judge me. I totally get that everyone has their own “grief journey”, but no matter where you are on yours – you don’t get to judge mine. You don’t get to tell me I can’t share with you – because YOU are not ready. If that’s the case you are not Team Victoria – you are team Selfish. You didn’t go through it everyday. You didn’t hold someone’s hand as they took their last breath. You didn’t have to plan a “funeral” at 38. You didn’t lose your person. You didn’t give up everything to care for someone and watch helplessly as they withered away to nothing and died.
Stop judging me. I don’t care if I lose you. I am used to it.
Thank you for allowing me to rant and really tell how it is.
– xoxo Victoria