I don’t have anything real to post tonight… I mean I do, I have three or four posts to write but I don’t  feel like it.  

I’m tired.  

My parents are here, which is awesome, Duane’s other brother is here, which he loves, we have activity and have been busy but I just don’t feel like posting any of that now – it feels somewhat like a lie.  I don’t feel like putting up pictures about how everything is fun and sunshine and rainbows when in reality it sucks.  There are some happy times in most days but we are at the point where they are becoming fewer and farther between.  

Watching someone die sucks.  There is nothing you can do to help.  Just watch.  

– xoxo Victoria